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33 [M4F] Ghosted twice this week. I refuse to give up in my search

2020.09.21 03:45 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Ghosted twice this week. I refuse to give up in my search

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.21 02:30 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Western Carolina University/Cullowhee/Sylva, NC - Ghosted twice this week, but I refuse to give up. Looking for a primary relationship

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.21 02:25 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Western Carolina University/Cullowhee/Sylva/Asheville NC - Been ghosted twice in a week but I refuse to give up.

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.21 02:21 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Been ghosted twice in a week, but I refuse to give up. Looking for my younger woman

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.16 17:06 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Western NC - Was recently ghosted by a promising romantic prospect. Disappointing, but my birthday is soon, so I have to keep trying

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.16 16:58 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Western NC - Was recently ghosted by a promising potential romantic partner. Disappointing, but my birthday is soon, so I have to keep trying.

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.16 16:46 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Western Carolina University, NC - Getting ghosted is pretty disappointing, but my birthday is soon, so I have to keep trying

Hello lady Redditors! Zack here. I was debating on copy/pasting my previous post from a couple days ago, but I figure if you're curious enough, you will check my Reddit history anyway. It's roughly the same format, with some more elaboration.
My birthday is a month away, and I'm hoping to meet a woman to help make my birthday special and memorable. I hope you enjoy reading, because I'm a strong communicator.
After what seemed to be a very promising start to a somewhat local romance, she deleted her account. It really sucks when you think you're doing everything right, only for someone to ghost you. Oh well, time to keep moving forward.
A little about me:
I'm 5'9", 160 lbs, brown hair (I'm growing it long again), hazel eyes, and covered in freckles. Here I am:
I'm a studio art major at Western Carolina University, in a small Appalachian mountain town called Cullowhee, NC, USA. I'm halfway through my junior year, as a transfer student. My focus is in painting. Some of my biggest influences come from the impressionism and post impressionism movements, namely Van Gogh, Matisse, Renoir, and Cezanne.
I identify as an atheist, humanist, hedonist, and existential nihilist. What this means is that I am not superstitious, I believe in maximizing human happiness and human potential, that life should be in the pursuit of pleasure, and that the universe and existence are absurd and without meaning, and the only way for us to have meaning is to give it to ourselves. On the Meyer's Briggs personality spectrum, I'm ANTP, meaning Ambiverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiving. I have Bipolar I, ADHD, minor psychosis, and hypersensitivity. This essentially means I have a fluctuating energy level, intense highs and lows in my moods (managed by medication), I hyperfocus on things that interest me, rarely hear or see things that are not there, and have very powerful and sometimes overwhelming senses.
My free time is spent playing video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I think games are a great way for people to open up and socialize. I don't play very many single player video games anymore, as I prefer playing competitive or cooperative games, like Wizard of Legend, Super Smash Bros (Ultimate and Melee), and Mario Kart. I also enjoy basketball and disc golf as outdoor activities.
I'm technically single, but tend to practice ethical non-monogamy. I am not opposed to monogamy, I just have a lot of social and emotional needs that aren't always met by one person. I don't mind if you see other people. I'm currently lightly involved with a couple women, but they aren't local. I'd love to meet a local woman, but if you're long distance, I'd love to get to know you and let some form of relationship happen organically. My ideal match is also someone looking for a committed relationship, who is my primary relationship, and everything else is tertiary. I know non-monogamy isn't for everyone, and I respect that. If you're otherwise interested in me and prefer monogamy, we can give it a shot if you meet at least most of my social and relationship needs.
My love languages are touch and quality time. I'm very affectionate and love getting affection in return. I like it when someone prefers to talk to me as much as possible, or spend as much time with me as possible. I tend to be attracted to women 5-10 years younger than me, but I will date anyone who makes a strong effort to get to know me. Effort goes a long way, ladies. Friends and current and past lovers would describe me as affectionate, compassionate, funny, witty, well read, highly intelligent, refreshing, low maintenance, intimidating, and a good kisser. My gay friends tell me they don't understand why more women aren't into me. Fuck if I know.
Perks of dating me: I will give you some of my art, and probably will paint or draw you. I am very affectionate, and a good communicator, so you can expect good morning and good night messages, lots of smooches, and support. I'll do my best to help you reach your goals, push you to try things outside of your comfort zone (that's the only way we grow!), be your shoulder to cry on, and be there to celebrate your victories.
If I even sound remotely interesting to you, reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. If you're unsure of what to say, here are some conversation starters:
Tell me about your most memorable concert
Talk to me about your favorite show or movie
Give me a playlist of music to check out
Tell me your greatest fear
Send me some bangin' memes
Hope to hear from you soon. Have a lovely day.
-Zack
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2020.09.15 07:52 maybematdamon 33[M4F] I'll probably get lost in M4F Hell, but my birthday is soon, so I have to try

Hello lovely lady redditors! I'm Zack, a 33 year old studio art major at Western Carolina University, in the mountains of North Carolina. My birthday is about a month away, and I'm looking for a lady who can help make my 34th birthday special. I'd prefer someone in the Asheville/Sylva/Cullowhee area, but I am really not opposed to long distance.
So a little about me: I'm an atheist, and hold no superstitious beliefs of any kind. I'm a hedonist, meaning I believe life should be in pursuit of pleasurable experiences. I'm a humanist, meaning I believe in helping people (and myself) reach their potential and be as happy as possible. I'm also an existential nihilist, which is to say that I believe there is no meaning to the universe and our existence, that existence and the universe are absolutely absurd, and we must find our own meaning to have any sense of fulfillment. I'm an ANTP on the Meyer's Briggs; Ambiverted Intuitive Thinking Perceiving. I have Bipolar I and ADHD, so my energy levels fluctuate, I'm hypersensitive and I'm a hypersexual.
My free time is spent occasionally playing video games in a social setting. I don't really game on my own anymore. I prefer to use video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I re-read A Song of Ice and Fire (the Game of Thrones books) over and over because it's the best literature I've ever encountered. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, the Matrix Trilogy, and Lost in Translation are my five favorite films. I prefer to listen to post-rock, jazz, neo-classical, and lofi music, so I don't really listen to music with lyrics much. My outdoor activities include basketball and disc golf.
I practice ethical non-monogamy. I am involved with a few women currently, but they aren't local, and they aren't able to meet all my social needs, because life happens. I'm currently single despite my non-platonic relationships, and am looking for a more involved, committed relationship, like a primary.
I'm a very giving and caring partner. My love languages are touch and quality time. I have a preference for younger women, between five to ten years younger than me, but I'm not opposed to dating anyone around my age. I'm intelligent, well read, very educated, affectionate, sarcastic, witty, and funny, or so I've been told.
I'm 5'9", 160 pounds, covered in freckles, and I have brown hair and hazel eyes. Here is a picture of me: https://i.ibb.co/f9JXS6n/hat.jpg
Perks of dating me: I'll greet you in the morning and wish you sweet dreams at night. I'll give you some of my art so you have original work to hang in your home. If we spend time together physically, you can expect lots of affection and care. I'll help you reach your goals, expose you to thoughts and experiences that will help you grow as a person, and challenge you to do your best. I'll be your shoulder to cry on, and I'll be there to celebrate your victories.
Reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have discord and if we are compatible, we can exchange handles and voice chat!
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2020.09.15 07:49 maybematdamon 33[M4F] I'll probably get lost in M4F Hell, but my birthday is soon, so I have to try

Hello lovely lady redditors! I'm Zack, a 33 year old studio art major at Western Carolina University, in the mountains of North Carolina. My birthday is about a month away, and I'm looking for a lady who can help make my 34th birthday special. I'd prefer someone in the Asheville/Sylva/Cullowhee area, but I am really not opposed to long distance.
So a little about me: I'm an atheist, and hold no superstitious beliefs of any kind. I'm a hedonist, meaning I believe life should be in pursuit of pleasurable experiences. I'm a humanist, meaning I believe in helping people (and myself) reach their potential and be as happy as possible. I'm also an existential nihilist, which is to say that I believe there is no meaning to the universe and our existence, that existence and the universe are absolutely absurd, and we must find our own meaning to have any sense of fulfillment. I'm an ANTP on the Meyer's Briggs; Ambiverted Intuitive Thinking Perceiving. I have Bipolar I and ADHD, so my energy levels fluctuate, I'm hypersensitive and I'm a hypersexual.
My free time is spent occasionally playing video games in a social setting. I don't really game on my own anymore. I prefer to use video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I re-read A Song of Ice and Fire (the Game of Thrones books) over and over because it's the best literature I've ever encountered. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, the Matrix Trilogy, and Lost in Translation are my five favorite films. I prefer to listen to post-rock, jazz, neo-classical, and lofi music, so I don't really listen to music with lyrics much. My outdoor activities include basketball and disc golf.
I practice ethical non-monogamy. I am involved with a few women currently, but they aren't local, and they aren't able to meet all my social needs, because life happens. I'm currently single despite my non-platonic relationships, and am looking for a more involved, committed relationship, like a primary.
I'm a very giving and caring partner. My love languages are touch and quality time. I have a preference for younger women, between five to ten years younger than me, but I'm not opposed to dating anyone around my age. I'm intelligent, well read, very educated, affectionate, sarcastic, witty, and funny, or so I've been told.
I'm 5'9", 160 pounds, covered in freckles, and I have brown hair and hazel eyes. Here is a picture of me: https://i.ibb.co/f9JXS6n/hat.jpg
Perks of dating me: I'll greet you in the morning and wish you sweet dreams at night. I'll give you some of my art so you have original work to hang in your home. If we spend time together physically, you can expect lots of affection and care. I'll help you reach your goals, expose you to thoughts and experiences that will help you grow as a person, and challenge you to do your best. I'll be your shoulder to cry on, and I'll be there to celebrate your victories.
Reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have ways to voice chat and if we are compatible, we can do that. Have a nice day.
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2020.09.15 07:41 maybematdamon 33 [M4F] Western NC - I'll probably get lost in M4F Hell, but my birthday is soon and I have to try

Hello lovely lady redditors! I'm Zack, a 33 year old studio art major at Western Carolina University, in the mountains of North Carolina. My birthday is about a month away, and I'm looking for a lady who can help make my 34th birthday special. I'd prefer someone in the Asheville/Sylva/Cullowhee area, but I am really not opposed to long distance.
So a little about me: I'm an atheist, and hold no superstitious beliefs of any kind. I'm a hedonist, meaning I believe life should be in pursuit of pleasurable experiences. I'm a humanist, meaning I believe in helping people (and myself) reach their potential and be as happy as possible. I'm also an existential nihilist, which is to say that I believe there is no meaning to the universe and our existence, that existence and the universe are absolutely absurd, and we must find our own meaning to have any sense of fulfillment. I'm an ANTP on the Meyer's Briggs; Ambiverted Intuitive Thinking Perceiving. I have Bipolar I and ADHD, so my energy levels fluctuate, I'm hypersensitive and I'm a hypersexual.
My free time is spent occasionally playing video games in a social setting. I don't really game on my own anymore. I prefer to use video games, board games, and Dungeons and Dragons as a social lubricant. I re-read A Song of Ice and Fire (the Game of Thrones books) over and over because it's the best literature I've ever encountered. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, the Matrix Trilogy, and Lost in Translation are my five favorite films. I prefer to listen to post-rock, jazz, neo-classical, and lofi music, so I don't really listen to music with lyrics much. My outdoor activities include basketball and disc golf.
I practice ethical non-monogamy. I am involved with a few women currently, but they aren't local, and they aren't able to meet all my social needs, because life happens. I'm currently single despite my non-platonic relationships, and am looking for a more involved, committed relationship, like a primary.
I'm a very giving and caring partner. My love languages are touch and quality time. I have a preference for younger women, between five to ten years younger than me, but I'm not opposed to dating anyone around my age. I'm intelligent, well read, very educated, affectionate, sarcastic, witty, and funny, or so I've been told.
I'm 5'9", 160 pounds, covered in freckles, and I have brown hair and hazel eyes. Here is a picture of me: https://i.ibb.co/f9JXS6n/hat.jpg
Perks of dating me: I'll greet you in the morning and wish you sweet dreams at night. I'll give you some of my art so you have original work to hang in your home. If we spend time together physically, you can expect lots of affection and care. I'll help you reach your goals, expose you to thoughts and experiences that will help you grow as a person, and challenge you to do your best. I'll be your shoulder to cry on, and I'll be there to celebrate your victories.
Reach out to me via chat or DM, I don't care which way you choose to introduce yourself. I'd love to meet you. I have discord and if we are compatible, we can exchange handles and voice chat!
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2020.09.03 00:55 oZ4XwM9l2foG6aS1 47[M4f] PacNW/Anywhere - looking for friendship, possible courtship, finding "The One"

I want to find someone to be a friend, that I can message, send texts, have conversations with, and maybe turn that into a courtship (yes I know, terribly old fashioned), and then a true partnership. Romance, passion to drive each other, and companionship for the long term.
I want the relationship first, I *do not* want sex unless it means something.I want, no I need, "Forever" to mean *Forever* if we get that far (more detail below).
Physical Description:
Background:
My ideal?
OK, so my sordid past...
I dated a little in high-school, had three girlfriends and ultimately married one of them when we were 18.
At 19 we had a kid.
We were married for 17 years, she had an affair that lasted over a year, told me, we tried to work things out (for a year), and then she decided she was done and wanted to divorce.
We divorced, I still loved her but was pissed at her.
About 5 years later she committed suicide and I had/have extremely mixed unresolved feelings. Still angry, but also sad. Still in love with who she was, but that is gone.
I've dated twice since then, neither had that spark.
I've also not had many partners (as in 4).
So if you have made it this far and are still interested, I would love to hear from you.
--- **TL;DR;** : Looking for a friend that could be more. I want to feel "in love" again. 
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2020.09.03 00:53 oZ4XwM9l2foG6aS1 47[M4f] PacNW/Anywhere - looking for friendship, possible courtship, finding "The One"

I want to find someone to be a friend, that I can message, send texts, have conversations with, and maybe turn that into a courtship (yes I know, terribly old fashioned), and then a true partnership. Romance, passion to drive each other, and companionship for the long term.
I want the relationship first, I *do not* want sex unless it means something.I want, no I need, "Forever" to mean *Forever* if we get that far (more detail below).
Physical Description:
Background:
My ideal?
OK, so my sordid past...
I dated a little in high-school, had three girlfriends and ultimately married one of them when we were 18.
At 19 we had a kid.
We were married for 17 years, she had an affair that lasted over a year, told me, we tried to work things out (for a year), and then she decided she was done and wanted to divorce.
We divorced, I still loved her but was pissed at her.
About 5 years later she committed suicide and I had/have extremely mixed unresolved feelings. Still angry, but also sad. Still in love with who she was, but that is gone.
I've dated twice since then, neither had that spark.
I've also not had many partners (as in 4).
So if you have made it this far and are still interested, I would love to hear from you.
--- **TL;DR;** : Looking for a friend that could be more. I want to feel "in love" again. 
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2020.08.31 23:21 oZ4XwM9l2foG6aS1 47[M4f] PacNW/Anywhere - looking for friendship, possible courtship, finding "The One"

I want to find someone to be a friend, that I can message, send texts, have conversations with, and maybe turn that into a courtship (yes I know, terribly old fashioned), and then a true partnership. Romance, passion to drive each other, and companionship for the long term.
I want the relationship first, I *do not* want sex unless it means something. I want, no I need, "Forever" to mean *Forever* if we get that far (more detail below).
Physical Description:
Background:
My ideal?
OK, so my sordid past...
I dated a little in high-school, had three girlfriends and ultimately married one of them when we were 18.
At 19 we had a kid.
We were married for 17 years, she had an affair that lasted over a year, told me, we tried to work things out (for a year), and then she decided she was done and wanted to divorce.
We divorced, I still loved her but was pissed at her.
About 5 years later she committed suicide and I had/have extremely mixed unresolved feelings. Still angry, but also sad. Still in love with who she was, but that is gone.
I've dated twice since then, neither had that spark.
I've also not had many partners (as in 4).
So if you have made it this far and are still interested, I would love to hear from you.
--- **TL;DR;** : Looking for a friend that could be more. I want to feel "in love" again. 
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2020.08.26 19:17 chicktweettweet My sister is gone, please read her story (TW)

My younger sister, let's call her Kailee, passed away on the 23rd. She took her life on the 17th, though she was in the ICU. It was just such a turbulent time. Our family has been posting and saying positive things about her so I feel like I can't talk about how disturbing her taking her life feels to me. It's disrupting my sleep and just feels....feels like the worst events that could happen. I want to write happy things about her too, but I thought this group might be good to get some of my guilt out. This will be a long post, but if you have the time please read and keep her in your thoughts.
Kailee was truly the SWEETEST girl, youngest of 3. I'm 2.5 years older and the oldest is 7 years older. As a baby, she would cry all the time and clearly did not feel comfortable around anyone but my mom and me. We played together all the time - actually, I would boss her around because my older sister bossed me around. But we really had tender childhood memories, we loved each other very much and had so much fun playing together.
In Junior High/early HS, Kailee was FULL of life. Like had a group of friends, was so bubbly and weird and hilarious - her old friend send me a treasure trove of inside jokes and notes she kept from her friendship. But early high school, she started feeling alone and left out. She thought the group was pushing her out. I know she felt other-ed being a POC (all of us did) growing up in a mostly white area. She also felt pressure from my parents who were the type to get really mad if you didn't get straight A's and constantly compared us to other kids who were much "smarter". But Kailee was creative - she wrote a lot, had a crazy imagination, even was good at art. Even more so, she was an AVID reader. Her goodreads shows she read like over 100 books. I think that paired with how close I was to my older sister made her feel left out and hurt. I LOVED her. I never thought of her as less or less close, I thought we had a different friendship. We were more quiet together, watched a ton of movies, did silly things and also bonded over anime and video games, but my older sister, when she would come around she was much more outgoing and I paid more attention to her. I regret it so much. It was never intentional on either of our ends, but now I can see how fucking hurtful that feels. My parents didn't understand her depression and thought she was being lazy and weren't supportive of her. I can't imagine how alone she felt. One of her friends just now told me she used to self harm in HS, which I had 0 idea.
About 6 years ago, my mom got really sick and suffered greatly from depression herself and started to understand it. This was huge. She and Kailee got SOOOOOOOOO close, she visited her in college every weekend even though it was like 2 hours away and Kailee started to confide to my mom about everything. She still told me stuff, but it was like a lite version, but we were still close. While she was in college, I moved away to LA and so did my older sister. I went home frequently - tried to go about 3 times a year for a total of 1.5 months - but of course I couldn't be quite as close. She suffered from great depression that I didn't understand. We found writings after she passed about how lonely she felt but how she knew she would self sabatoge by not responding to friends texts, how if she was angry at a friend she would be passive aggressive rather than talk it out, how she knew she had this illness. She was so so so lonely but too afraid to reach out to others for the fear of rejection. She opened up to us sisters about it a little too (we also suffer from mental illness), but it was the lite version and she would always be like "Ok thank you that helped!"
We actually pulled her out of college for a semester like 1.5 years ago because she was telling my mom about how she had suicidal thoughts. Damn it, that was a fucking clear sign that I am so so so angry at our whole family for not taking more care. She went to a therapist spottily and didn't take her medication on time or even at all and no one checked to make sure she was ok - I've suffered very similar feelings as her but have always found a way to cope - so I thought she would be ok or it wasn't as bad as it was. I'm mad at myself but I know it's not my fault but it doesn't alleviate the feeling of guilt.
I think she had this deep feeling of loneliness and inability to connect for a long time. She had a few friends she was fairly close to, but my mom said she felt left out or would get angry if they had other friends or wouldn't respond right away - but the thing was she also depressed and took a long time to respond to texts. We all loved her so much and I truly believe no one was trying to be mean to her or leave her out, we should have been more mindful but I'm sure he depression warped it. She was also diagnosed with OCD, she had a lot of intrusive thoughts and a hard time writing or even talking because of a certain way she needed the syllables to be. It was hard for her to communicate and bond but she wanted it so badly.
Fast forward to covid times. We texted long stuff a few times a week, but it was usually about movies we wanted to watch together and random things. We facetimed privately a few times times, played games together, had the 3 of us sisters call, and some family calls. Each time she seemed ok.
She was dating someone at the time - HUGE STEP - she had a few other fuck boi relationships where they were using her and also added to her sense of abandonment - but she felt he didn't love her enough. I called her and talked about how everyone shows love differently and you can't control how someone acts and that if she felt frustrated, talking to him would be the best step rather than what she was doing - getting angry without saying anything and leaving and then pretending everything was fine. She said it was helpful and she would try, but I don't know if her depression let her. Eventually she broke up with him twice and he didn't want to get back together. I encouraged her to do online dating - but she said she tried OKcupid and didn't form anything meaningful and would try Tinder when she moved to another city because of her job. Oh yeah, she scored a job right out of college that had a 2 year contract to place you at a company somewhere in the US. She didn't really want the job bc it wasn't her major but she said "Well nothing better to do" even tho it was RIGHT out of college - I was like please wait bc I knew she would be lonely if she moved to another city and was worried about her mental health. But I should have been supportive. I was really negative and said it sounded like a scam (it's not, they actually really loved and cared about her) and I guess her other friends said similar things.
She told me a few things. She told me she hated seeing her face on zoom and she was ugly. She told me she hated the space from her upper lip to her nose - which it a normal length - and that she missed her ex. That she cried when her roommates cat got moved out of their apartment. That she started drinking to feel entertained and "Isn't that sad?" and that she drank 9 beers and puked all over my childhood room.
I didn't realize these were small cries for help. She presented everything as a semi-normal reaction to events...everyone is sad about exes and feels self conscious! I've been high the entire quarantine and used to throw up form drinking all the time! But I didn't know the things she was telling my mom, which I only found out after she passed. She said Kailee cried all the time about her ex and would constantly say she was boring, she was nothing, no one liked her, that her sisters loved her but thought of her as "extra" and as a baby. She loved that cat, but even felt like that cat betrayed her when it would go to her roommate and only to her when she was home alone. She mentioned to her psych she had hit the cat and felt like they were judging her and asked my mom to help her find another psych, which never happened. But she was so gentle and showered that cat with love after. That she was a pig that could only eat (she gained maybe 10 pounds at home, but literally was probably 130 max). That she felt so lonely and just wanted a boyfriend SO bad but didn't know how to connect. I don't think her depression let her understand that making connections is hard and takes years of work. It just feels extra fucked up because everything she felt, I truly have felt, but had ways to cope and at least a little self-confidence. I wish have told her about it and wish I could have helped more, because life gets BETTER.
I was suppose to come home on the 21st anyways for my birthday, which is on the 13th. She texted me how excited she was, she had written out a list of movies for us to watch (because we always spent so much time looking), wanted to learn how to play Hearthstone better (a game I was obsessed with), and picked out the weed she wanted me to bring her from LA. That was our last texts. She told me what weed she wanted. And I said ok! Have you seen season 5 of Steven Universe - a show we LOVED - side note but she also always loved the happiest, sweet characters in shows. Her lock screen on her phone is currently Aang. I was so excited because covid hasn't been easy on me either along with the state of the country, my partner got diagnosed with MS and has also been taking about death, and our cat got really sick. I am on medication and no longer depressed but truly am a high function very anxious person. I was excited because going home meant I was safe and got to see one of my BEST FRIENDS, my younger sister who I don't have to be fake around, I can tell her everything I truly feel and can lounge around and have such a fun chill time with. Hadn't seen her since NYE, where we went to a party together. I was so proud of her, and he resolution was to be more social.
I woke up on the 18th from a hysterical cry from my older sister. Kailee had tried to commit suicide via hanging herself. The image disturbs me SO much, like was her tongue sticking out, was she blue, were her eyes open, did she pee herself? It makes me want to vomit, especially since we watched SO SO SO many horrors together (our fav genre!). I don't think I like horror anymore. I can't think of Haunting of Hill House, Hereditary, of especially Midsommner (all of which we watched together) the same. I feel triggered when people even say "Let's hang out!" or see rope or a belt. I didn't even see it obviously. But the imagination makes it worse, I didn't know any details at first and I thought maybe it was the ceiling fan? It wasn't, but my imagination was and is still running rampant. It didn't feel real. It doesn't feel real at all. I was still in LA at the time, with my flight booked home on Friday. It made me feel like she didn't care and couldn't wait for me. Or she didn't trust me enough to tell me what she was going through. I feel like I have failed. I was hysterical the first few days before I could get home. I was in denial, they were able to start her heart and body up again maybe they got there in time? She's young, only 23! Her body was getting a little better the second day in the hospital and I was so full of hope. They didn't think she would last the night.
After snooping thru her phone (SORRY KAILEE FORGIVE ME) when I got home, I noticed she was talking to someone she met off OKcupid. He also seemed a bit mentally ill and they really comforted each other. she never mentioned him to me, except that she "had a friend that played Final Fantasy 14", which we were playing together. He constantly apologized for ghosting her, which IMO he didn't? Everyone needs time to respond to texts. He would say that if he didn't respond for like 3 days. But even when she didn't respond, he would follow up with her. But there was a period of 10 days where he didn't text her. I don't blame him, life is hard. But on the 13th, my birthday, he greatly apologized for being MIA and that he really cared about her. She didn't ever respond. He texted her Tuesday, the day after she left, that he was so sorry and that he hoped she was taking care of herself. Then texted her wed with a heart. I just wish he could have texted her earlier, tho I place no blame on this person.
I noticed on her google searches that day, she googled "How do I respond to someone who ghosted me?". Her search history became more and more disturbing, other methods of suicide, Sylvia Path and others who killed themselves (according to her goodreads, she just finished The Bell Jar), why are humans so evil, why am I ugly, horrible true crime etc etc. Before that, it seemed as if she was obsessed with her Meyers-Briggs and asked so many questions on reddit about it and had hundreds of searches about it. It was deeply disturbing to see it but I needed to know. I feel guilty this started my birthday. I should have called her. I cancelled a family call the day before she took her life as well because I was socially burnt out. I would do anything to have seen her face one more time.
The day she did it, my dad said she was pacing around and looking for my mom, her rock. My mom was her best fucking friend and they had SO many hilarious inside jokes. She was her ride or die, but because my mom came from another country, she didn't FULLY understand Kailee and obviously wasn't her age. I don't blame my mom but I understand why she feels so much guilt. She had told my mom she was researching about suicide and knew the most efficient way, even weeks ago. That she couldn't stop thinking of a boy our family knew who also ended his life. That she hated her physical body and asked if she would have a spiritual body, as my mother is Christian. She started to learn more about God literally right before she did this. Maybe it gave her the push of oh, there is another side.
But my mom came in at night after mowing the lawn and was a little short to Kailee, telling her not to hug her because she was sweaty. Kailee was upset and told my mom she broke her heart and went upstairs. My mom went by later to her room and asked if she wanted watermelon and tried to open the door. She SHOVED the door shut and didn't say a word. Sometimes we are all bratty, she didn't think much of it. She went by after like 15 min and noticed the door was locked and she didn't answer. She waited a little longer and unlocked the door and found her. She got my dad and they placed her down and started CPR as my dad called the ambulance. They brought her body back but it was too late. I truly believe her body lasted on long enough for my and my older sister to get back home. We got to spend 3 days with her before she was declared brain dead. Her physical body was still there. Because she was so giving in life, we knew she would want to be an organ donor and save other's lives. We got to see her body for one more day and cry and pray and say goodbye and recount all of our beautiful memories. Seeing her being pushed into the surgery room to remove her organs was one of the worst things.
Now we are rushing around trying to get the funeral set up. I ordered her clothing based off some stuff she screenshot on her phone. She never dressed up and said she never cared about her looks but I think she was hiding her insecurities. I wish she knew how truly absolutely beautiful she was. She was always SO SO SO nice to me, she always let me have the bigger slice or wanted to pay for me when I was home. She was so fucking funny and always called me a "CHICK TWEET TWEET" because I had blonde hair for so long. She always send me chick memes, even on my most recent birthday and bought me chick related items. She bought my parents so much food all the time and worked a part time job to try to pay for rent. She was quiet and even thru her depression, got a comp sci major and was ALWAYS studying and trying. My parents weren't even as hard on her as they were in HS. They really loved her, as me and my sister did, even if my dad and older sister were a bit more distant. My older sister loved Kailee SO much, the age difference made it hard to talk but they were starting to really connect.
She screenshot this song a few hours before she took her life. Im praying and hoping it was some sort of message to us, for us to seek comfort. It could mean nothing. But that and Millennial Actress mean a lot to me and are symbolic.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pllRW9wETzw
It hurts so much. We know it wasn't our faults. But we all hurt and feel like we should have done more. Could we have saved her? Maybe. Maybe we would at least get more time with her. I hate it. I hate that I have to write a eulogy for her and fucking bury her. I can't imagine what she was thinking before she left. I hate it. I hate she felt so lonely and sad and couldn't express it. I wish she could have waited for me to get home, just a few days later. We were suppose to grow old together and she promised my mom she would take care of her. I'm so so sad. I miss you so much. I know she is with me and I find comfort that so many people now are RALLYING for her and have donated so much to her funeral fund. People liked her. Depression warped her views and self esteem. not fair I love her forever. Sorry, know this is extremely long. Just want to get everything out while it's fresh so I never forget, even the painful parts. Bless you if you read all of this and keep my dear younger sister in your heart. She was and is amazing. Gentle. Beautiful. Hilarious. Love you forever tweet tweet.
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2020.08.25 23:02 oZ4XwM9l2foG6aS1 47[M4f] PacNW/Anywhere - looking for friendship, possible courtship, finding "The One"

I want to find someone to be a friend, that I can message, send texts, have conversations with, and maybe turn that into a courtship (yes I know, terribly old fashioned), and then a true partnership. Romance, passion to drive each other, and companionship for the long term.
I want the relationship first, I don't want sex unless it means something.
I want, no I need, "Forever" to mean *Forever* if we get that far (more detail below).
Physical Description:
Background:
My ideal?
OK, so my sordid past...
I dated a little in high-school, had three girlfriends and ultimately married one of them when we were 18.
At 19 we had a kid.
We were married for 17 years, she had an affair that lasted over a year, told me, we tried to work things out (for a year), and then she decided she was done and wanted to divorce.
We divorced, I still loved her but was pissed at her.
About 5 years later she committed suicide and I had/have extremely mixed unresolved feelings. Still angry, but also sad. Still in love with who she was, but that is gone.
I've dated twice since then, neither had that spark.
I've also not had many partners (as in 4).
So if you have made it this far and are still interested, I would love to hear from you.
--- **TL;DR;** : Looking for a friend that could be more. I want to feel "in love" again.
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2020.08.12 06:04 zella_anne Me (22F) and my boyfriend (25M) have been dating 1.5 years, ldr for 1 year of that, he wants to get married. I don't know if I'll ever be ready. Am I ready?

So this is NOT throwRA, but I did finally create a reddit account for this purpose (will be staying for the foreseeable future now that I'm here though).
So, basically. This is the longest time I've been dating someone. Before my current boyfriend I had major intimacy issues via catholic child guilt which resulted in me being a one night standard person; basically love and sex did not belong in the same scenario for me at first. I tried to date two people during that time, but looked for people who seemed emotionally unavailable and therefore would be mild on the romantic side of the relationship. This strat resulted in me dating two confirmed sociopaths on accident; do not recommend.
To the point, I'm finally doing a lot better. I am deeply in love with my current boyfriend and don't ever want to leave him. He brought up the M word, like 6 months into dating though and as the child of divorce (with a mom who's been remarried 3 times by 42 and divorced all 3 time. The latter 2 because the guys said they loved her only to turn around and cheat on her; the first time because she got me when she was 19), I have NEVER imagined in my wildest dreams getting married. It just seems inherently flawed and I don't know too many success stories. The old married couples I know (grandparents, parents of friends, etc.) all seem bitter and resigned, not happy and in love. But my bf is the son of a baptist preacher and really believes in/values marriage.
Last Valentine's Day, he told me that after a lot of thought, he decided it would be best to leave proposing to me so I didn't have to worry about him springing the question every time he did something romantic (which tbh was becoming a major stress). This was SO SWEET and has really deepened my love for him. Over the past 6 months as well, I've noticed that MY reservations toward marriage have been changing. It doesn't seem like an eternity of suffering anymore for example and one of my favorite songs since I was 10 is starting to sound like a complete song where before I only ever listened to the verses because the chorus seemed stupid and random and like a totally different song (The Only Exception by Paramore).
Lately I've been wavering wildly between deciding to break up with him (because I'll never be able to give him the marriage he wants) or buy a ring and propose. Side note: I'm finishing college right now to go into special education and I told him before he even brought it up the first time that I'm a busy, driven person who would never get married in college and if he ever decided to propose within that time frame I'd definitely say no (haha little did I know...). So pro cons:
Pros:
I love him, I've never loved anyone this much,
We've already been together over a year (wayyyy longer than any of my previous relationships (4 months in high school)),
we have a lot in common (moral standards, ideal living situation, money, religion, kids***, gender roles, family trauma, fav games, pets, ask me more in the comments),
if I'm not ready with him I really don't know if I'll ever be ready with anyone,
he makes me believe in love,
we can sit in silence together,
we work better when the other person is around,
we've been visiting each other about 1/month since ldr, I wouldn't do ldr if I didn't see a future with him,
his family likes me, my family LOVES him (mainly cause he has seriously impacted my anxiety and eating issues),
He recently decided he's willing to move in with me after I graduate but before marriage, which was a major argument for the past year since we both know that that is gonna be really rough on his family and while I wanted to do that, I still am uncertain about putting him through that**
Cons:
I still feel like I'm leaping off a cliff over water filled with glass shards and man eating sharks when I think about walking down the aisle (I feel like I'd be sentencing our relationship to death, like he'd suddenly realize that I'm not worth being with)
We have soooo many differences with wedding decisions (ie: his family would want to ban alcohol, my family needs alcohol to exist in the same room; he has like 3 friends who he could ask to be groomsmen, it would be a MAJOR challenge to get my list of bridesmaids down to 12 (feel free to ask in the comments); he would probably want to get married in a church but I am a recent christian convert without a denomination and feel weird going full baptist; he wants rings, I think they're a scam and would prefer a tattoo or a sentiment; he would want to get married in his hometown to invite his church family, my family is military and spread out I'd want to try for somewhere central as far as travel goes.
**I feel like I have a lot of wrong reasons to marry him: to appease his parents so he doesn't have to argue with them when we move in together and because I miss him soooo much being long distance and half of me just wants to have the chance to be around him every day.
***I don't want kids and before he met me he always wanted them and imagined his life with them. The first time I asked him about it he said he "didn't really mind one way or the other" if he had kids but that he knew he loves me and will always want to be with me. He's since told me that he doesn't really want kids anymore but I've been gung ho about not wanting kids forever and I'm worried that he just thinks I'm young and will change my mind (which like maybe I'm well aware of the trope of 20 somethings not wanting kids till they have them, but also I regularly dream about being infertile so I don't have to fight people about my decision and I have an IUD that lasts for another 7 years so I don't think that's a good way to start out).
We've been ldr for the majority of our relationship and I feel like that has us stuck in the honeymoon phase. We talk everyday 2-3 times a day and every weekend we get to be together is like 3 days of absolute bliss, last time he visited me was when I was really stressed during finals week and so he rubbed the knots out of my back while I ignored him to write papers, made me a whole lasagna and didn't let me help, was patient and kind, and just generally helpful in every way while I had to be busy, he wasn't even supposed to come visit that week because I knew I was busy, but he wanted to because he knew that I was struggling and "he just wanted to be there to help." As for me, I am hella broke but I regularly send him little gifts (food and flowers and stuff) as often as I can; I drive up to visit him whenever possible, I fall behind on schoolwork because I'll stay up talking with him, I don't know what the policy is on this subreddit for NSFW but I'll let you imagine how I express my love for him both when we're together and when we're apart. BUT>>> that's the standard we're living at rn, I don't think we'll leave each other when the honeymoon phase ends and every day isn't roses and rainbows, but jumping into marriage from that seems like a crazy bet to make.
I constantly feel like he puts in more effort than I do (he always says its okay cause I'm still in max time school, part time job land). But to me this seems like a real issue, what if I'm just not as committed? He'll eventually be bothered????

I'm seriously torn. I've never thought I'd even consider marrying somebody. This is SOOO far off script for me but then again so was falling in love in the first place. Can anyone help me? Is it bad to be so uncertain about marriage in the first place? Is everyone this soul-shakingly scared when they consider it? Is there ever a point where it just seems right? Is this just divorce baby trauma talking?
Sorry for the book of a post. I hope y'all can help.
P.S. If this helps anyone. I'm an ESFJ for meyers briggs. And I'm an Aquarius with a Cancer; I don't really put much stock in personality tests or the zodiac but I'll accept any advice.

TL;DR I don't know if I'm ready to marry my bf, but I feel like the main question I'm asking myself now is why not, instead of why? How do I know if I'm ready - or just read the pro/cons and see if there's a clear choice.
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2020.08.09 13:16 CtrlAltw0rm 33 [M4F] Canada/Online, I just want to find you, you know?

      Hey there, my name is Jordan, 33/M/Alberta Canada, looking for a lovely lady (CIS / MtF: ✔️). I am writing this again, and rewriting this, and will continue to evolve this post as I continue in search for you. Please be patient with me, I hope you enjoy reading, because it will be a novel by the time I am finished.
      Not sure what the best way is to write this out, so, I'll just do what I can. Laying in bed restless when I try to sleep, I feel that I always know what I want to write out, but when I sit at the desk I go blank.
      I...don't know it's better to tell you what I'm looking for, or if I try to provide you with what you may be finding here. I will tell you some more about me. You know my name, my age, and my general location but there is so much more. I suppose some type of indication is that I have been classified as an INTJ from the Meyers Briggs Type Indicator testing. That information may be helpful in the coming post if you decide to continue reading.
       I believe strongly that people are so much more complex emotionally and socially than we really take at surface level. So much communication is given without words; the way we look at each other, the way I can hear you smile in your laughter or your words, or the way I can be told a story by looking in your eyes. I can feel your excitement when I see you can't get enough, and I really feed off your anticipation when I know you are wondering about me. You know, I do those things about you, too. It is important, I think, to be able to communicate effectively with the right person, and I always do my best to communicate. In this respect, I actually really value good communication, good conversations, or just good time spent together. Hours on the phone (Discord?) at night in video calls talking about our pasts, our futures, our wants, each other, talking about whatever, and sometimes not even talking at all, just...being together. These are values of mine, and they are incredibly huge. This sort of thought process follows me through a lot of aspects of my life in the way I feel about things. Very few things in my life feel important to me, but the few things that do are so gravitational that they matter so much more -- enough to compensate for all the things that don't matter at all.
      It's so cliche to tell people that "I like to laugh, I'm a fun guy! I just wanna have fun and take it easy." I think many of us are like that, and it's a bit redundant to tell. I think that as people we want to live our lives with enjoyment, not in misery.. Perhaps it is best, in the vein of Open Communication for me to talk to you about other parts of me that might be lesser known. I am..sad. Often. Not always. For an INTJ, I express a lot of emotional responses to irrational things and my soul is weighted with melancholy. I also feel it is a bit cliche to talk about depression: it's 2020 and we're all depressed and dealing with our own situations and we all deal with our problems individually -- nobody deals with the same situation exactly the same way. I just don't want it to be a secret. If you decide to talk with me, you'll notice that I like to make jokes a lot, and I will do everything in my power to help you feel better about whatever situation, I work hard to maintain positivity, just, sometimes it's not easy. I am an overthinker, and I postulate on many stupid things that are self destructive and cause a lot of stress in my life. Often, I am extremely sure of things and I am confident with that, but when I am unsure of things or feel in danger, I am anxious and sometimes a mess. I have a lot to give to the right person, and I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I hope that is perfect for you. So, let this be possibly the most honest R4R post ever written, haha. For real, I just like to laugh, and I'm a fun guy. I just wanna have fun and take it easy!
      Speaking of sureness and confidence; I am a very confident person in my own rights. I know exactly who I am, I am self aware, and I know exactly what I want when I want it and I am not afraid to express it. I am strong willed, I am a leader, and I enjoy being in that position. Often, I think of myself like a Knight; I want to walk with you on your path and I will have my sword and shield ready to aid you in any battle you may come across. There have been a lot of situations that have crossed my path throughout the years, and I am strong and want to be your strength as well. Not that I want to do things for you, but I want to be there with you for those things, to help raise you up and bring you up, to lend you that strength -- in the times when I am weak and hurt, I will need your strength as well.
      I work a lot. On average, I work 10-12 hours a day, but I am fortunate enough to work from home. I create YouTube videos and live stream 5 nights a week, and in my off nights I work around 3-4 hours a day as well. I am not wildly successful or popular, you haven't heard of me, but because of my work I have a lot of available time as well to give to you. I want your time, I want to occupy you
      Physically, I am probably not the most flattering (No, it's not modesty, it's just reality.) I am stocky, and I am working hard to lose weight. Starting in December 2019 I started going to the gym regularly and regulating my diet and adjusting macros so that I could shed some weight and gain some muscle mass. Since December (302 lbs) I weigh in at 259 lbs and continuing to work hard towards that goal. Since the existing Corona Virus, I haven't been able to attend the gym, but I will be going back once the gyms open up -- I have found myself missing the routine and attraction to results and the health I've felt since attending the gym. Feels good to look much better. The other large note about my physical appearance is that I have a beard (It's not giant or anything, but it's a full beard) and I dye it routinely. I bleach and dye the beard myself. Feel free to ask me more about it, but it is another part of my identity that I enjoy as a freedom of expression, a form of creativity, and something that sets me as me. I am not much of the type of person to care what others think about me, so I'm fine with some of the strange looks in public. One of the responses to my previous R4R was "What is that beard I am looking at?!" Is okay, it's not for everyone to go out on a date or show off their boyfriend who has a purple, pink, blue, or firey red beard. I won't judge you for it. Oh, yeah... I'm 5'11". a TALL 5'11", don't get me twisted. I'm basically 6'0".........
      Speaking on Judgement. I am no judicator, and I won't judge you for your history, for your actions, for your decisions or who you are and what you enjoy or like. I mean, ironically I would jest to tease you, but in all seriousness I pride myself on being a safe space for all. There is a quote, I am paraphrasing, but it is something along the lines of, "I may not agree with what you say, but I will fight to the death for your right say it." Your religion, your gender, your identity, your sexual preference, your race, we are all human and we are all valid. We are all unique, but we are all equal.
      A relationship, in my opinion, is made up in a sum of lesser pieces to create the greater two parts and I feel it breaks down to: Emotional Connection (Personality compatibility, communication, romance) and Physical Connection. Obviously two people have to like each other to maintain a healthy relationship, but I also feel the need to express that a physical component is equally important in a relationship. I wouldn't say I'm a big kinkster, but I am definitely really open sexually to kinks and adventurous sex lives. In this respect, I am the top in qualifying relationships. Without being "Too Much Information", I have had a painfully vanilla and extremely boring sex life and I really don't want to go in to that a second time. Physical connection is important because when we talk about this sort of thing, or plan to experience this sort of thing, I want to be attracted to you and the situation equally, I would feel horrible if I woke up in the morning next to someone and thought, "I gotta wake up to this face for the next __ years..." I would expect nothing less out of my partner, as well. We have to mesh on every level.
      Also, on sex and attraction. Your face is the most beautiful think I will look at. Sexy photos and nudes are great and all, but if I don't see your face then... what? Honestly, a beautiful smile, eyes that tell that story, the way you do your hair and how you look. Those are things that I find incredibly sexy. Yes, I also think your body is sexy, haha, but, for real, I will fall for you for your face.
      I have a history just like everyone else does. I just want to be up front about it, and honest. I have only had 3.5 relationships in my life. The longest being a 10 year relationship with my ex wife, and the .5 being most recently where I connected with a woman where things got pretty serious for a bit but never established a relationship type of status/connection. I have two children who I see every weekend. I own a house and provide support to a family member in it, as well as co-own it with another family member. To be honest, I am pretty tied to this geographical location, so, just want that to be out there and open.
      I suppose if you've survived this wall of text, my mini novel, it's prudent to tell you what I'm looking for. Emotionally, I'm looking for someone who is similar to me, or at least someone who can take inspiration from me and the words I write, the ways I write them, and looking to have support. I feel that vulnerability is incredibly sexy and I am interested in your vulnerability; I am also interested in giving you mine. There is a special connection when trust is so established that care for one another is on that next level -- the words we exchange should be the ones we let affect us, not the words of a random who is out to cause anarchy. The woman I'm looking for us smart, a little shy, and probably so modest she'd never admit to just who amazing she really is. I will see it in you and I will definitely remind you of it. Physically, she is petite and fit, she has eyes that shine through the darkness and a smile that can lift the heaviest of spirits. Likely she is younger than me by a bit (-3 or more.) Part of my personality is to be a leader and I enjoy sharing experiences and providing that guiding light, and age may play a large part in that. She is equally adventurous in her sex life and willing to try new fun things together, or share existing fun interests with each other.
      In closing, I would like to say thank you for taking the time, if you read through all of this. You are really something else to survive this R4R post, and I'm glad you stuck it out. Hopefully something was interesting enough up there to keep your attention until the end. I have thought while re-writing this post if I should include a photo in the post or not, but I think I will include it above. If you are still reading; have a great day, I appreciate your time, you are incredible and valid, you are awesome and I hope to chat with you if you are that woman for me. I want to fall in love, and wherever you are, I've missed you for a very long time.
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2020.08.09 13:15 CtrlAltw0rm 33 [M4F] Canada/Online, I just want to find you, you know?

      Hey there, my name is Jordan, 33/M/Alberta Canada, looking for a lovely lady (CIS / MtF: ✔️). I am writing this again, and rewriting this, and will continue to evolve this post as I continue in search for you. Please be patient with me, I hope you enjoy reading, because it will be a novel by the time I am finished.
      Not sure what the best way is to write this out, so, I'll just do what I can. Laying in bed restless when I try to sleep, I feel that I always know what I want to write out, but when I sit at the desk I go blank.
      I...don't know it's better to tell you what I'm looking for, or if I try to provide you with what you may be finding here. I will tell you some more about me. You know my name, my age, and my general location but there is so much more. I suppose some type of indication is that I have been classified as an INTJ from the Meyers Briggs Type Indicator testing. That information may be helpful in the coming post if you decide to continue reading.
       I believe strongly that people are so much more complex emotionally and socially than we really take at surface level. So much communication is given without words; the way we look at each other, the way I can hear you smile in your laughter or your words, or the way I can be told a story by looking in your eyes. I can feel your excitement when I see you can't get enough, and I really feed off your anticipation when I know you are wondering about me. You know, I do those things about you, too. It is important, I think, to be able to communicate effectively with the right person, and I always do my best to communicate. In this respect, I actually really value good communication, good conversations, or just good time spent together. Hours on the phone (Discord?) at night in video calls talking about our pasts, our futures, our wants, each other, talking about whatever, and sometimes not even talking at all, just...being together. These are values of mine, and they are incredibly huge. This sort of thought process follows me through a lot of aspects of my life in the way I feel about things. Very few things in my life feel important to me, but the few things that do are so gravitational that they matter so much more -- enough to compensate for all the things that don't matter at all.
      It's so cliche to tell people that "I like to laugh, I'm a fun guy! I just wanna have fun and take it easy." I think many of us are like that, and it's a bit redundant to tell. I think that as people we want to live our lives with enjoyment, not in misery.. Perhaps it is best, in the vein of Open Communication for me to talk to you about other parts of me that might be lesser known. I am..sad. Often. Not always. For an INTJ, I express a lot of emotional responses to irrational things and my soul is weighted with melancholy. I also feel it is a bit cliche to talk about depression: it's 2020 and we're all depressed and dealing with our own situations and we all deal with our problems individually -- nobody deals with the same situation exactly the same way. I just don't want it to be a secret. If you decide to talk with me, you'll notice that I like to make jokes a lot, and I will do everything in my power to help you feel better about whatever situation, I work hard to maintain positivity, just, sometimes it's not easy. I am an overthinker, and I postulate on many stupid things that are self destructive and cause a lot of stress in my life. Often, I am extremely sure of things and I am confident with that, but when I am unsure of things or feel in danger, I am anxious and sometimes a mess. I have a lot to give to the right person, and I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I hope that is perfect for you. So, let this be possibly the most honest R4R post ever written, haha. For real, I just like to laugh, and I'm a fun guy. I just wanna have fun and take it easy!
      Speaking of sureness and confidence; I am a very confident person in my own rights. I know exactly who I am, I am self aware, and I know exactly what I want when I want it and I am not afraid to express it. I am strong willed, I am a leader, and I enjoy being in that position. Often, I think of myself like a Knight; I want to walk with you on your path and I will have my sword and shield ready to aid you in any battle you may come across. There have been a lot of situations that have crossed my path throughout the years, and I am strong and want to be your strength as well. Not that I want to do things for you, but I want to be there with you for those things, to help raise you up and bring you up, to lend you that strength -- in the times when I am weak and hurt, I will need your strength as well.
      I work a lot. On average, I work 10-12 hours a day, but I am fortunate enough to work from home. I create YouTube videos and live stream 5 nights a week, and in my off nights I work around 3-4 hours a day as well. I am not wildly successful or popular, you haven't heard of me, but because of my work I have a lot of available time as well to give to you. I want your time, I want to occupy you
      Physically, I am probably not the most flattering (No, it's not modesty, it's just reality.) I am stocky, and I am working hard to lose weight. Starting in December 2019 I started going to the gym regularly and regulating my diet and adjusting macros so that I could shed some weight and gain some muscle mass. Since December (302 lbs) I weigh in at 259 lbs and continuing to work hard towards that goal. Since the existing Corona Virus, I haven't been able to attend the gym, but I will be going back once the gyms open up -- I have found myself missing the routine and attraction to results and the health I've felt since attending the gym. Feels good to look much better. The other large note about my physical appearance is that I have a beard (It's not giant or anything, but it's a full beard) and I dye it routinely. I bleach and dye the beard myself. Feel free to ask me more about it, but it is another part of my identity that I enjoy as a freedom of expression, a form of creativity, and something that sets me as me. I am not much of the type of person to care what others think about me, so I'm fine with some of the strange looks in public. One of the responses to my previous R4R was "What is that beard I am looking at?!" Is okay, it's not for everyone to go out on a date or show off their boyfriend who has a purple, pink, blue, or firey red beard. I won't judge you for it. Oh, yeah... I'm 5'11". a TALL 5'11", don't get me twisted. I'm basically 6'0".........
      Speaking on Judgement. I am no judicator, and I won't judge you for your history, for your actions, for your decisions or who you are and what you enjoy or like. I mean, ironically I would jest to tease you, but in all seriousness I pride myself on being a safe space for all. There is a quote, I am paraphrasing, but it is something along the lines of, "I may not agree with what you say, but I will fight to the death for your right say it." Your religion, your gender, your identity, your sexual preference, your race, we are all human and we are all valid. We are all unique, but we are all equal.
      A relationship, in my opinion, is made up in a sum of lesser pieces to create the greater two parts and I feel it breaks down to: Emotional Connection (Personality compatibility, communication, romance) and Physical Connection. Obviously two people have to like each other to maintain a healthy relationship, but I also feel the need to express that a physical component is equally important in a relationship. I wouldn't say I'm a big kinkster, but I am definitely really open sexually to kinks and adventurous sex lives. In this respect, I am the top in qualifying relationships. Without being "Too Much Information", I have had a painfully vanilla and extremely boring sex life and I really don't want to go in to that a second time. Physical connection is important because when we talk about this sort of thing, or plan to experience this sort of thing, I want to be attracted to you and the situation equally, I would feel horrible if I woke up in the morning next to someone and thought, "I gotta wake up to this face for the next __ years..." I would expect nothing less out of my partner, as well. We have to mesh on every level.
      Also, on sex and attraction. Your face is the most beautiful think I will look at. Sexy photos and nudes are great and all, but if I don't see your face then... what? Honestly, a beautiful smile, eyes that tell that story, the way you do your hair and how you look. Those are things that I find incredibly sexy. Yes, I also think your body is sexy, haha, but, for real, I will fall for you for your face.
      I have a history just like everyone else does. I just want to be up front about it, and honest. I have only had 3.5 relationships in my life. The longest being a 10 year relationship with my ex wife, and the .5 being most recently where I connected with a woman where things got pretty serious for a bit but never established a relationship type of status/connection. I have two children who I see every weekend. I own a house and provide support to a family member in it, as well as co-own it with another family member. To be honest, I am pretty tied to this geographical location, so, just want that to be out there and open.
      I suppose if you've survived this wall of text, my mini novel, it's prudent to tell you what I'm looking for. Emotionally, I'm looking for someone who is similar to me, or at least someone who can take inspiration from me and the words I write, the ways I write them, and looking to have support. I feel that vulnerability is incredibly sexy and I am interested in your vulnerability; I am also interested in giving you mine. There is a special connection when trust is so established that care for one another is on that next level -- the words we exchange should be the ones we let affect us, not the words of a random who is out to cause anarchy. The woman I'm looking for us smart, a little shy, and probably so modest she'd never admit to just who amazing she really is. I will see it in you and I will definitely remind you of it. Physically, she is petite and fit, she has eyes that shine through the darkness and a smile that can lift the heaviest of spirits. Likely she is younger than me by a bit (-3 or more.) Part of my personality is to be a leader and I enjoy sharing experiences and providing that guiding light, and age may play a large part in that. She is equally adventurous in her sex life and willing to try new fun things together, or share existing fun interests with each other.
      In closing, I would like to say thank you for taking the time, if you read through all of this. You are really something else to survive this R4R post, and I'm glad you stuck it out. Hopefully something was interesting enough up there to keep your attention until the end. I have thought while re-writing this post if I should include a photo in the post or not, but I think I will include it above. If you are still reading; have a great day, I appreciate your time, you are incredible and valid, you are awesome and I hope to chat with you if you are that woman for me. I want to fall in love, and wherever you are, I've missed you for a very long time.
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2020.08.09 13:13 CtrlAltw0rm 33 [M4F] Canada/Online, I just want to find you, you know?

      Hey there, my name is Jordan, 33/M/Alberta Canada, looking for a lovely lady (CIS / MtF: ✔️). I am writing this again, and rewriting this, and will continue to evolve this post as I continue in search for you. Please be patient with me, I hope you enjoy reading, because it will be a novel by the time I am finished.
      Not sure what the best way is to write this out, so, I'll just do what I can. Laying in bed restless when I try to sleep, I feel that I always know what I want to write out, but when I sit at the desk I go blank.
      I...don't know it's better to tell you what I'm looking for, or if I try to provide you with what you may be finding here. I will tell you some more about me. You know my name, my age, and my general location but there is so much more. I suppose some type of indication is that I have been classified as an INTJ from the Meyers Briggs Type Indicator testing. That information may be helpful in the coming post if you decide to continue reading.
       I believe strongly that people are so much more complex emotionally and socially than we really take at surface level. So much communication is given without words; the way we look at each other, the way I can hear you smile in your laughter or your words, or the way I can be told a story by looking in your eyes. I can feel your excitement when I see you can't get enough, and I really feed off your anticipation when I know you are wondering about me. You know, I do those things about you, too. It is important, I think, to be able to communicate effectively with the right person, and I always do my best to communicate. In this respect, I actually really value good communication, good conversations, or just good time spent together. Hours on the phone (Discord?) at night in video calls talking about our pasts, our futures, our wants, each other, talking about whatever, and sometimes not even talking at all, just...being together. These are values of mine, and they are incredibly huge. This sort of thought process follows me through a lot of aspects of my life in the way I feel about things. Very few things in my life feel important to me, but the few things that do are so gravitational that they matter so much more -- enough to compensate for all the things that don't matter at all.
      It's so cliche to tell people that "I like to laugh, I'm a fun guy! I just wanna have fun and take it easy." I think many of us are like that, and it's a bit redundant to tell. I think that as people we want to live our lives with enjoyment, not in misery.. Perhaps it is best, in the vein of Open Communication for me to talk to you about other parts of me that might be lesser known. I am..sad. Often. Not always. For an INTJ, I express a lot of emotional responses to irrational things and my soul is weighted with melancholy. I also feel it is a bit cliche to talk about depression: it's 2020 and we're all depressed and dealing with our own situations and we all deal with our problems individually -- nobody deals with the same situation exactly the same way. I just don't want it to be a secret. If you decide to talk with me, you'll notice that I like to make jokes a lot, and I will do everything in my power to help you feel better about whatever situation, I work hard to maintain positivity, just, sometimes it's not easy. I am an overthinker, and I postulate on many stupid things that are self destructive and cause a lot of stress in my life. Often, I am extremely sure of things and I am confident with that, but when I am unsure of things or feel in danger, I am anxious and sometimes a mess. I have a lot to give to the right person, and I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I hope that is perfect for you. So, let this be possibly the most honest R4R post ever written, haha. For real, I just like to laugh, and I'm a fun guy. I just wanna have fun and take it easy!
      Speaking of sureness and confidence; I am a very confident person in my own rights. I know exactly who I am, I am self aware, and I know exactly what I want when I want it and I am not afraid to express it. I am strong willed, I am a leader, and I enjoy being in that position. Often, I think of myself like a Knight; I want to walk with you on your path and I will have my sword and shield ready to aid you in any battle you may come across. There have been a lot of situations that have crossed my path throughout the years, and I am strong and want to be your strength as well. Not that I want to do things for you, but I want to be there with you for those things, to help raise you up and bring you up, to lend you that strength -- in the times when I am weak and hurt, I will need your strength as well.
      I work a lot. On average, I work 10-12 hours a day, but I am fortunate enough to work from home. I create YouTube videos and live stream 5 nights a week, and in my off nights I work around 3-4 hours a day as well. I am not wildly successful or popular, you haven't heard of me, but because of my work I have a lot of available time as well to give to you. I want your time, I want to occupy you
      Physically, I am probably not the most flattering (No, it's not modesty, it's just reality.) I am stocky, and I am working hard to lose weight. Starting in December 2019 I started going to the gym regularly and regulating my diet and adjusting macros so that I could shed some weight and gain some muscle mass. Since December (302 lbs) I weigh in at 259 lbs and continuing to work hard towards that goal. Since the existing Corona Virus, I haven't been able to attend the gym, but I will be going back once the gyms open up -- I have found myself missing the routine and attraction to results and the health I've felt since attending the gym. Feels good to look much better. The other large note about my physical appearance is that I have a beard (It's not giant or anything, but it's a full beard) and I dye it routinely. I bleach and dye the beard myself. Feel free to ask me more about it, but it is another part of my identity that I enjoy as a freedom of expression, a form of creativity, and something that sets me as me. I am not much of the type of person to care what others think about me, so I'm fine with some of the strange looks in public. One of the responses to my previous R4R was "What is that beard I am looking at?!" Is okay, it's not for everyone to go out on a date or show off their boyfriend who has a purple, pink, blue, or firey red beard. I won't judge you for it. Oh, yeah... I'm 5'11". a TALL 5'11", don't get me twisted. I'm basically 6'0".........
      Speaking on Judgement. I am no judicator, and I won't judge you for your history, for your actions, for your decisions or who you are and what you enjoy or like. I mean, ironically I would jest to tease you, but in all seriousness I pride myself on being a safe space for all. There is a quote, I am paraphrasing, but it is something along the lines of, "I may not agree with what you say, but I will fight to the death for your right say it." Your religion, your gender, your identity, your sexual preference, your race, we are all human and we are all valid. We are all unique, but we are all equal.
      A relationship, in my opinion, is made up in a sum of lesser pieces to create the greater two parts and I feel it breaks down to: Emotional Connection (Personality compatibility, communication, romance) and Physical Connection. Obviously two people have to like each other to maintain a healthy relationship, but I also feel the need to express that a physical component is equally important in a relationship. I wouldn't say I'm a big kinkster, but I am definitely really open sexually to kinks and adventurous sex lives. In this respect, I am the top in qualifying relationships. Without being "Too Much Information", I have had a painfully vanilla and extremely boring sex life and I really don't want to go in to that a second time. Physical connection is important because when we talk about this sort of thing, or plan to experience this sort of thing, I want to be attracted to you and the situation equally, I would feel horrible if I woke up in the morning next to someone and thought, "I gotta wake up to this face for the next __ years..." I would expect nothing less out of my partner, as well. We have to mesh on every level.
      Also, on sex and attraction. Your face is the most beautiful think I will look at. Sexy photos and nudes are great and all, but if I don't see your face then... what? Honestly, a beautiful smile, eyes that tell that story, the way you do your hair and how you look. Those are things that I find incredibly sexy. Yes, I also think your body is sexy, haha, but, for real, I will fall for you for your face.
      I have a history just like everyone else does. I just want to be up front about it, and honest. I have only had 3.5 relationships in my life. The longest being a 10 year relationship with my ex wife, and the .5 being most recently where I connected with a woman where things got pretty serious for a bit but never established a relationship type of status/connection. I have two children who I see every weekend. I own a house and provide support to a family member in it, as well as co-own it with another family member. To be honest, I am pretty tied to this geographical location, so, just want that to be out there and open.
      I suppose if you've survived this wall of text, my mini novel, it's prudent to tell you what I'm looking for. Emotionally, I'm looking for someone who is similar to me, or at least someone who can take inspiration from me and the words I write, the ways I write them, and looking to have support. I feel that vulnerability is incredibly sexy and I am interested in your vulnerability; I am also interested in giving you mine. There is a special connection when trust is so established that care for one another is on that next level -- the words we exchange should be the ones we let affect us, not the words of a random who is out to cause anarchy. The woman I'm looking for us smart, a little shy, and probably so modest she'd never admit to just who amazing she really is. I will see it in you and I will definitely remind you of it. Physically, she is petite and fit, she has eyes that shine through the darkness and a smile that can lift the heaviest of spirits. Likely she is younger than me by a bit (-3 or more.) Part of my personality is to be a leader and I enjoy sharing experiences and providing that guiding light, and age may play a large part in that. She is equally adventurous in her sex life and willing to try new fun things together, or share existing fun interests with each other.
      In closing, I would like to say thank you for taking the time, if you read through all of this. You are really something else to survive this R4R post, and I'm glad you stuck it out. Hopefully something was interesting enough up there to keep your attention until the end. I have thought while re-writing this post if I should include a photo in the post or not, but I think I will include it above. If you are still reading; have a great day, I appreciate your time, you are incredible and valid, you are awesome and I hope to chat with you if you are that woman for me. I want to fall in love, and wherever you are, I've missed you for a very long time.
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2020.08.07 06:11 forest_witch Looking for a best friend who may someday want to be my forever partner. F29 PNW/Anywhere.

I’m tired of dating apps. They seem so impersonal and capitalized. I only seem to get swiped right by men and I’m just exhausted from the experience.
I’m an INTP according to Meyer’s Briggs and I’m a Sagittarius if that matters. I’ve been through a lot of hard times in life and find myself wanting to devote time to reading, art and music. I have two bachelor degrees, one in anthropology and the other in religious studies. I would like to one day devote myself to studying political anthropology. My main goal in life is to be a student.
I have a second career in veterinary sciences. I was, up until recently, a veterinary assistant at the local animal shelter. Not only was I an assistant, but I enjoyed fostering shy dogs and helping them find their footing.
If any of this sounds interesting to you, I’d love to chat. Please send me a PM. I’m trying to find the best friend I will someday spend my life with, whether that sounds cheesy or clique.
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2020.08.05 20:26 2zO3l8dm5BslXKed 47M - dating/relationship advice

I'm not sure what outcome I am looking for here. I am mainly just getting all of this off my chest since I am feeling worn out lately.
Apologies for the rambling, feel free to grill/challenge/ask me questions.

Some random background stuff:

OK, so relationships...
I dated a little in high-school, had three girlfriends and ultimately married one of them when we were 18. At 19 we had a kid. We were married for 17 years, she had an affair that lasted over a year, told me, we tried to work things out (for a year), and then she decided she was done and wanted to divorce. We divorced, I still loved her but was pissed at her. About 5 years later she committed suicide and I had/have extremely mixed unresolved feelings. Still angry, but also sad. Still in love with who she was, but that is gone.
I've dated twice since then, neither had that spark.
I've also not had many partners (as in 5).
I'm stuck in that my reference point for "being in love" was high-school, full of hormones, that feeling of having your breath taken away, wanting to just *be* with that person, to absorb all that they are. There is a vitality to it, a spark, a certain energy. To say I have missed that is an understatement.
I don't know if mentally, relationship wise, I am stuck at 18 or something, but I have not been attracted to women my age. Women that spark my interest and give me that "feeling"? Well, they are in the 18 - 30 age range. I can't explain what it is.
Lately I've been thinking and it has been getting me down.
After the divorce I've been dealing with depression and put on a lot of weight. I went from "Dad bod" in my 30's to being 47 and very overweight. I'm just tired. I don't think I'm ever going to find another relationship. The women I like are out of my league.
When I focus on myself and keep busy with hobbies I am ok, but in the quiet moments it comes crashing in again.
I've tried the various apps and I don't match with anyone I am interested in.
My ideal?
I want a true partnership, romance, passion to drive each other, and companionship for the long term.
I dunno...
--- **TL;DR;** : I want to feel "in love" again. 
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2020.06.29 16:32 CtrlAltw0rm 33 [M4F] Alberta/Online - I want to wake up next to you.

      Hey there, my name is Jordan, 33/M/Alberta Canada, looking for a lovely lady (CIS / MtF: ✔️). I am writing this again, and rewriting this, and will continue to evolve this post as I continue in search for you. Please be patient with me, I hope you enjoy reading, because it will be a novel by the time I am finished.
      Not sure what the best way is to write this out, so, I'll just do what I can. Laying in bed restless when I try to sleep, I feel that I always know what I want to write out, but when I sit at the desk I go blank.
      I...don't know it's better to tell you what I'm looking for, or if I try to provide you with what you may be finding here. I will tell you some more about me. You know my name, my age, and my general location but there is so much more. I suppose some type of indication is that I have been classified as an INTJ from the Meyers Briggs Type Indicator testing. That information may be helpful in the coming post if you decide to continue reading.
       I believe strongly that people are so much more complex emotionally and socially than we really take at surface level. So much communication is given without words; the way we look at each other, the way I can hear you smile in your laughter or your words, or the way I can be told a story by looking in your eyes. I can feel your excitement when I see you can't get enough, and I really feed off your anticipation when I know you are wondering about me. You know, I do those things about you, too. It is important, I think, to be able to communicate effectively with the right person, and I always do my best to communicate. In this respect, I actually really value good communication, good conversations, or just good time spent together. Hours on the phone (Discord?) at night in video calls talking about our pasts, our futures, our wants, each other, talking about whatever, and sometimes not even talking at all, just...being together. These are values of mine, and they are incredibly huge. This sort of thought process follows me through a lot of aspects of my life in the way I feel about things. Very few things in my life feel important to me, but the few things that do are so gravitational that they matter so much more -- enough to compensate for all the things that don't matter at all.
      It's so cliche to tell people that "I like to laugh, I'm a fun guy! I just wanna have fun and take it easy." I think many of us are like that, and it's a bit redundant to tell. I think that as people we want to live our lives with enjoyment, not in misery.. Perhaps it is best, in the vein of Open Communication for me to talk to you about other parts of me that might be lesser known. I am..sad. Often. Not always. For an INTJ, I express a lot of emotional responses to irrational things and my soul is weighted with melancholy. I also feel it is a bit cliche to talk about depression: it's 2020 and we're all depressed and dealing with our own situations and we all deal with our problems individually -- nobody deals with the same situation exactly the same way. I just don't want it to be a secret. If you decide to talk with me, you'll notice that I like to make jokes a lot, and I will do everything in my power to help you feel better about whatever situation, I work hard to maintain positivity, just, sometimes it's not easy. I am an overthinker, and I postulate on many stupid things that are self destructive and cause a lot of stress in my life. Often, I am extremely sure of things and I am confident with that, but when I am unsure of things or feel in danger, I am anxious and sometimes a mess. I have a lot to give to the right person, and I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I hope that is perfect for you. So, let this be possibly the most honest R4R post ever written, haha. For real, I just like to laugh, and I'm a fun guy. I just wanna have fun and take it easy!
      Speaking of sureness and confidence; I am a very confident person in my own rights. I know exactly who I am, I am self aware, and I know exactly what I want when I want it and I am not afraid to express it. I am strong willed, I am a leader, and I enjoy being in that position. Often, I think of myself like a Knight; I want to walk with you on your path and I will have my sword and shield ready to aid you in any battle you may come across. There have been a lot of situations that have crossed my path throughout the years, and I am strong and want to be your strength as well. Not that I want to do things for you, but I want to be there with you for those things, to help raise you up and bring you up, to lend you that strength -- in the times when I am weak and hurt, I will need your strength as well.
      I work a lot. On average, I work 10-12 hours a day, but I am fortunate enough to work from home. I create YouTube videos and live stream 5 nights a week, and in my off nights I work around 3-4 hours a day as well. I am not wildly successful or popular, you haven't heard of me, but because of my work I have a lot of available time as well to give to you. I want your time, I want to occupy you
      Physically, I am probably not the most flattering (No, it's not modesty, it's just reality.) I am stocky, and I am working hard to lose weight. Starting in December 2019 I started going to the gym regularly and regulating my diet and adjusting macros so that I could shed some weight and gain some muscle mass. Since December (302 lbs) I weigh in at 259 lbs and continuing to work hard towards that goal. Since the existing Corona Virus, I haven't been able to attend the gym, but I will be going back once the gyms open up -- I have found myself missing the routine and attraction to results and the health I've felt since attending the gym. Feels good to look much better. The other large note about my physical appearance is that I have a beard (It's not giant or anything, but it's a full beard) and I dye it routinely. I bleach and dye the beard myself. Feel free to ask me more about it, but it is another part of my identity that I enjoy as a freedom of expression, a form of creativity, and something that sets me as me. I am not much of the type of person to care what others think about me, so I'm fine with some of the strange looks in public. One of the responses to my previous R4R was "What is that beard I am looking at?!" Is okay, it's not for everyone to go out on a date or show off their boyfriend who has a purple, pink, blue, or firey red beard. I won't judge you for it. Oh, yeah... I'm 5'11". a TALL 5'11", don't get me twisted. I'm basically 6'0".........
      Speaking on Judgement. I am no judicator, and I won't judge you for your history, for your actions, for your decisions or who you are and what you enjoy or like. I mean, ironically I would jest to tease you, but in all seriousness I pride myself on being a safe space for all. There is a quote, I am paraphrasing, but it is something along the lines of, "I may not agree with what you say, but I will fight to the death for your right say it." Your religion, your gender, your identity, your sexual preference, your race, we are all human and we are all valid. We are all unique, but we are all equal.
      A relationship, in my opinion, is made up in a sum of lesser pieces to create the greater two parts and I feel it breaks down to: Emotional Connection (Personality compatibility, communication, romance) and Physical Connection. Obviously two people have to like each other to maintain a healthy relationship, but I also feel the need to express that a physical component is equally important in a relationship. I wouldn't say I'm a big kinkster, but I am definitely really open sexually to kinks and adventurous sex lives. In this respect, I am the top in qualifying relationships. Without being "Too Much Information", I have had a painfully vanilla and extremely boring sex life and I really don't want to go in to that a second time. Physical connection is important because when we talk about this sort of thing, or plan to experience this sort of thing, I want to be attracted to you and the situation equally, I would feel horrible if I woke up in the morning next to someone and thought, "I gotta wake up to this face for the next __ years..." I would expect nothing less out of my partner, as well. We have to mesh on every level.
      Also, on sex and attraction. Your face is the most beautiful think I will look at. Sexy photos and nudes are great and all, but if I don't see your face then... what? Honestly, a beautiful smile, eyes that tell that story, the way you do your hair and how you look. Those are things that I find incredibly sexy. Yes, I also think your body is sexy, haha, but, for real, I will fall for you for your face.
      I have a history just like everyone else does. I just want to be up front about it, and honest. I have only had 3.5 relationships in my life. The longest being a 10 year relationship with my ex wife, and the .5 being most recently where I connected with a woman where things got pretty serious for a bit but never established a relationship type of status/connection. I have two children who I see every weekend. I own a house and provide support to a family member in it, as well as co-own it with another family member. To be honest, I am pretty tied to this geographical location, so, just want that to be out there and open.
      I suppose if you've survived this wall of text, my mini novel, it's prudent to tell you what I'm looking for. Emotionally, I'm looking for someone who is similar to me, or at least someone who can take inspiration from me and the words I write, the ways I write them, and looking to have support. I feel that vulnerability is incredibly sexy and I am interested in your vulnerability; I am also interested in giving you mine. There is a special connection when trust is so established that care for one another is on that next level -- the words we exchange should be the ones we let affect us, not the words of a random who is out to cause anarchy. The woman I'm looking for us smart, a little shy, and probably so modest she'd never admit to just who amazing she really is. I will see it in you and I will definitely remind you of it. Physically, she is petite and fit, she has eyes that shine through the darkness and a smile that can lift the heaviest of spirits. Likely she is younger than me by a bit (-3 or more.) Part of my personality is to be a leader and I enjoy sharing experiences and providing that guiding light, and age may play a large part in that. She is equally adventurous in her sex life and willing to try new fun things together, or share existing fun interests with each other.
      In closing, I would like to say thank you for taking the time, if you read through all of this. You are really something else to survive this R4R post, and I'm glad you stuck it out. Hopefully something was interesting enough up there to keep your attention until the end. I have thought while re-writing this post if I should include a photo in the post or not, but I think I will include it above. If you are still reading; have a great day, I appreciate your time, you are incredible and valid, you are awesome and I hope to chat with you if you are that woman for me. I want to fall in love, and wherever you are, I've missed you for a very long time.
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